This Crazy Life....

If there's one thing you can count on it's change. No matter how hard we try, we can't stop it. Sometimes it's welcomed and at other times you think you've accepted it and then it hits you and you realize you weren't really ready for it. For example and I know this may sound slightly childish, but our family dog that we've had for 10+ years got sick and died recently. And honestly I thought I was ready for it because so many changes have happened lately and he was just so old...it just seemed like the right timing. Vanessa and I got married, we both moved, we both started new jobs, David transfered to Tarleton and started a new job, and Priscilla is a senior in high school this year. I thought I was dealing with all the changes very well and then Oscar (the dog) died and for days I just cried. I couldn't help but think that I was being completely ridiculous for crying so much over a dog, but then I realized that it really was a sad thing because he was family and I also realized I hadn't allowed myself to let all the changes really sink in. I think because all of the other changes were happy ones I forgot to allow myself time to really reflect on them and realize that my entire life had been completely altered. That's kind of a big deal...in fact a very big deal. I think I just got so busy trying to make the changes happen, my brain and even my heart slightly checked out of reality for a moment. Crazy that a person can do that, but it happens. The same thing can happen when there is a tragedy. Some people deal with the greif right away and others seem to hold it in and check out for a moment because they get so caught up in trying to make life move on normally afterwards. Life gets crazy busy sometimes and when it does it's hard to just take the time to sit down long enough to even think. So I think my goal for this weekend is to get by myself and think/pray about a lot of things. There's a lot going on right now and I feel like when I don't take the time to pray and think I begin to lose myself. Does anyone else ever feel like that? Almost as if time slips away and then all of a sudden you're stuck wondering what on earth were you doing all that time. This is the first time I've sat down to write since my last blog. I actually wanted to earlier today, but when you have a million questions coming from 20 different middle school kids you don't really have the time. Granted I was at work to, so you know lol! I also saw a friend's blog tonight and realized that I needed to update my life story as well, but I'll continue all of that another day. So to all of you I guess I just want to say.... take time for yourself. Do the things you love and spend time with the people you love. Don't allow the business to take over and take time to reflect on your life.